I THOUGHT of you in the early hours of this morning. I do not know why but I remembered when and how we first met and how we became the best of friends.
Although our friendship was short-lived due to circumstances beyond our control, I know in my heart that we are turanas, sisters and best friends still.
As my contemplation drifts to the good times we had - crazy moments of laughter, tears, arguments and pain - I smile as I picture your lopsided grin and your thoughtful face.
I remember how we sang Christmas carols whatever time of year it was because we wanted Christmas to come sooner.
Had I known you would be gone so soon, I would not have longed for Christmas to come so quickly because that would mean I would lose you earlier.
I recall how we would swoon every time we saw something we loved. We shared the most wonderful times, and the worst and sad times.
We shared our deepest and darkest secrets and we swore we would take them to each other’s graves. I know mine are safe with you as yours are safe with me. Even though you are gone, I keep my promise to you.
I reflect of what could have been; I wonder who you would have married and where you would be living, how many kids you would have and what you would be now.
Every time I watch a new movie or cartoon or hear a new song I know you would like, I imagine us repeating our favourite lines and killing the song by singing it over and over.
I wish I could take a day, an hour or even a minute to sit by your side so we could tell each other about everything happening in our lives.
I wish I had been given the chance to say goodbye. You left so soon eight years ago, that 18 August 2008.
All I had was your voicemail that I replayed over and over just to hear the sound of your voice. But that has gone too. The sun will never shine the same without you in my life.
I would give anything to have a random conversation with you where we would laugh ourselves silly over something funny to us but not to others.
The memories are bittersweet and I miss you every day and I will always wonder what our lives would have been like had you not left so soon.
It has taken me all of those eight years to write this down. You filled my mind this morning and I am sorry I did not do it sooner.
Rest in peace beloved turagu, sister and best friend Lesher Kel, until we meet again.
My heart is at peace feeling that you are at peace. All my love my dear Elly and I will see you again when the good Lord calls me home.