AGNES ARE | The Crocodile Prize
I know you can never understand the way I feel for you
It’s harder for me to forget the times we shared
The way you find so easy to do.
Logically it’s wrong to lie without a doubt but this feeling
within my heart can never be denied even though you’ve
locked me out.
To you, I’m just a friend but that’s what I’ve led you to believe
and nothing more.
I know that if to love you were a crime, I’d have broken every
law. Maybe I’m misguided or just unwise but I find
something special when I look into your eyes.
something that tells me that you too hide behind the curtain
I’ve witnessed as you gave your heart away to a different person
It hurts so much to know that you care for someone else the
way I care for you but I know it’s just a symbol to prove
Sometimes, I’m certain you do like me no matter what you say
But your love is just an image
I cannot find the key, like a wild animal you were born to be free.
Even though I may be walking against the wind
the price so far from my reach, I’m not willing to give in
If you think your friendship brings less pain than for your
sake I’ll carry on the game though you make me hide from
the truth, I know the charade is not in van.
I know you have friends you wish to keep
I don’t want to take them away from you.
I only want to be a part of your life.
Is that too much to ask, am I prying too deep?
I don’t want to worry,
I’ve hurt so much trying to deny I care
I just want you to know that I still love you
If you ever need someone, I’ll always be there for you.
Maybe things could be better
Maybe as time goes by you’ll see
Maybe the circle of tears will end and you’ll understand how
Special we could be.
Agnes Are (23) was born in Mumeng in Morobe Province. She is in her first year of teaching at Kundiawa Lutheran Day High School. She enjoys writing poems, especially ‘love poems’. She started writing poems as therapy after a broken relationship